I am no fool.

I woke up with this thought brewing in my mind, reached for my phone before my eyes opened so I could write it down before I forgot it.

If we hold onto what we have as though it's not something we possess but something to use towards bringing the Kingdom, we'll never be dissatisfied with what we don't have.

I find this to be very true in my life. If all that we have is a gift from the Father to be used to love Him and love those around us then we can't get caught being greedy. I find myself sometimes dissatisfied with what I don't have. I don't have the ability to communicate with those around me. I don't have a companion to share my life with well. I dont have enough energy to always stay awake until 8 or 9pm. I don't have a car or the ability to buy foods I can cook easily (so pretty much cook at all). I don't have a day off too often. I don't have an easy time writing lesson plans or doing my job. I don't have a lot of money to be throwing around. I dont really have enough money here to be saving a lot either. I dont have enough time in the day to do what I need to do. I dont have enough time to get to be creative and seem to do what I'm created to do. I don't have my lesson plan finished or copies made for class in 3 hours. I don't have my family at close disposal. I don't really have anyone who knows my whole story or who has walked close by to understand daily life things (it changes about every 2 years). I dont have the ability to live in blissful ignorance anymore (although at times it's something that I strongly desire). I dont have the ability to be casual about life.

I focus a lot on what I dont have, but this isn't a blog about focusing on what you do have instead of what you dont have. It's a blog about you were never supposed to be focusing on what you do or dont have. You originally have nothing - then the Father gives you something for you to use to Love Him and Love the people around you (Mt 22:37-40).

Lk 12.31 - "Instead, seek His Kingdom and all these things will be added to you" is given to us to tell us not to worry about basics like food and water and clothes. (Be careful cause v33 will get you though.) That all we have is not for us to possess but to bless others in the process. I dont have money so I wont get caught up. I don't have a companion so I can go wherever is needed whenever. I dont have the time to do what I desire so I can relate better to my students who don't want to be studying English (most failed the college entrance exam and this is the place they could get into). I don't have the ability go back to life as normal because ultimately I pray that never happens. I have or dont have so that I can better bless, love, and bring the Kingdom.

What's the Kingdom look like?
-people are loved
-people are healed - physically and spiritually and emotionally
-every person has value
-every person understands and loves their King
-people are listened to
-crying, pain, frustration, anxiety, fear, etc has all stopped
-situations, people, nations, and nations are restored - not "dealt with," "put up with" or "figured out how to get by"
-no one says "that's just the way it is" unless their talking about His grace for us
-the only time the words "starving" or "slaves" is heard is in a story/testimony of a distant past life
-no one looks down their nose at someone but instead up through their eyebrows as their washing their feet instead
-every person has an incredible segment of the Father's character and heart to display and with the other saints does it incredibly well
-the only time "injustice" is hear of is when discussing the cross
-H.Spirit gets to move in us and stir in us greater affections for the King

I'm convinced (now this morning due to the HS) that if I could remember my life and all I have was to bring the Kingdom - I would never be frustrated by what I dont have, what I lack, or what I want to do but can't.

Seeing this flesh out today may be a different story - but I'd love to let Him give it a try. (He's so good at these things.)

"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose."
- Jim Elloit

(hope you get the April 1st correlation to the title. He's pretty funny like that.)