Our Dreamer Update

If you remember back to last summer, I shared the story of one of my students who met J in a dream. She started to believe, but then realized she couldn’t have a belief and be in the Party so she dropped her belief and the dream. What I love about getting to stay 2 years and Chinese people is that they work hard at things, so now she can explain more of what happened.  Here’s the update.

This weekend Tannah, my teammate, went home with 3 of the girls to their village, Billy Gram Jr., the dreamer, and another student.  Tannah was warned by Jr. that the dreamer didn’t’ like to talk about it at all. Apparently, she had seen J dying on the cross and was scared. (Not the scared you’re thinking of…) The type of scared that someone could love her that much. If He loves me that much, I don’t think I can be a Believer because I’m not good enough. She shared how she’s scared by that type of love and that He went through all of that for her.  

She confessed how she didn’t understand how He would accept her after she and her family had bowed down to her ancestors’ graves and pr- to them. She didn’t understand how He would accept someone who had went and slept with her boyfriend and on and on.

Tannah described obedience as when you’re in a relationship and your boyfriend says “hey can you do me a favor?” and you say “of course!” It’s like that. The Father asked, “Tannah, will you wait until to sleep with a boy until you get married?” “Sure, J.”  She explain how it’s like that, we do these things because we get J out of the deal. We do them out of love. “Oooohhhh.” As things inside began to click.

On the way back, the dreamer said. “I think having a religion is good. I really want to have a religion but I just don’t think I can.” (Religion here doesn’t have the negative, condemning, works based connotation that it does in America. Here it’s the word the further developed word they know for “having a belief.”) I’m afraid that when I’m a Believer and my parent have taught and want me to bow down to my ancestors because it’s cultural. But how can I do that when I know what He’s done for me.”  Tannah challenged her to take the next month and just ask the Father that everyday what she should do with that. “Oh. Oh, ok.” She said with determination.  Please, let’s join in and help her come home! Continue to lift for us and we for you. He is big and we want to take G-sized steps. I don’t want to get in the way and make Him stutter-step.  

Give us all strength to pursue, the boldness to do so, the peace to rest when needed, and the wisdom of what to do in the whole process. For Your Beautiful Name, So-Be-It.