The Younger Big Brother

The closer we get to transitioning to our school the more I consider our situation. I'm the only guy on my 5 person returning team. There are 5 guys on the new CTF team coming to our school. I think all of them are 25-26 ... 2 or 3 years older than me. Yet, I'm the one with China experience and experience at our school. Tonight as I shared some issues i expect to deal with (girls having the inside track with each other, being left out, having boundaries to be aware of yet still be open with my team, etc.) I discussed this with one of my teammates, she shared a different idea that she saw as a possibility.

As I will be living, possibly, in the same stairwell as the guys I will serve not as their team-leader but as more of a big brother whose close by.

The Father seems to use me not as "here say this to encourage or provoke their mind" but more of "be awkwardly vulnerable and intimately honest with people, even if and probably before they are with you." Then, after this process, I will use your heart and it's broken confusion to show others that it's ok and what it's like for it to bleed something worth while. Sounds cool, but very humbling to do all the time. (you'd think I'd learn if I just stayed humble things wouldn't humble me as much.) But in pursuit of Him, they would somehow see what it's like to be vulnerable and real with Him about doubts and fears and struggles and then joys and triumphs. That He will use me as the fluidly stable big brother. Always unstable, yet still consistent. I want to be used, I want to encourage them, I want to love them. I want to love Him and be used by Him and hopefully, I can stay humble enough to just be real and vulnerable with them so that they can if nothing else, be real with Him. After that, it's up to Him to come through.

Anyways, this is what I learned and would request help in being. Below is a picture of the new team that's joining us. I'll get a picture of my new current team in a few days. Thanks for the Love and Support.